I was always very anxious person and this anxiety really helped me to motivate myself to do anything. I would procrastinate, wait for anxiety to kick in and panicking do the thing in 1/10 of time. However after this cbd thing the anxiety no longer kicks in lmao. It is gone for real, I can’t even evoke it if I wanted. And so my career/education took a huge hit.

At first I thought this effect was because of slight amounts of THC “making me lazy”. I imagined that I got a bit addicted to it over the year of everyday full spectrum cbd usage and I got stereotypical “bum” mentality from “weed” 😅

My next step as soon as I noticed that I no longer have drive and motivation and ambition? was to just come clean off it and I did it single day, was a bit irritable and angry for a week but generally not a big deal.

So now I am months after that and I realize that there is more to this. That this anxiety that cbd killed was actually part of my coping with adhd. I mean how else explain that months after quitting I still haven’t regained my “motivation” to finish something before deadline? The anxiety just doesn’t kick in, it is gone.

Idk honestly I must find some other way because I am almost 30 and that also is some sort of deadline hopefully the anxiety kicks at birthday.

I don’t know honestly if I should celebrate my calmness and relaxation or should I curse myself for losing the coping method. I need to find another… somehow.

I guess I don’t miss panic attacks but it is hard to balance it all. Some anxiety is kind of a force that for me was propelling me forward. Now I just want to relax and chill all the timee. Sit there on the patio comfortably with beverage and just take the nature in. That doesn’t work good for me in the long run I feel.

  • OrangeTree@lemm.eeEnglish
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    8 days ago

    Adderall helped me with this temporarily if that is something accessible to you.

    I’ve smoked weed daily for the past 4 years and over time it helped me slow down my mind to identify situations that give me anxiety. I’ve practiced either avoiding those situations or taken the time to understand why those situations give me anxiety.

    I am a people pleaser and would do everything I could to make others jobs at work easier at my own expense. I got lots of praise and good raises because of it. After learning to deal with my anxiety I just can’t put myself back into that position anymore.

    I started taking Adderall which helped for a few months but I didn’t stop with the weed so I feel like i’m back at square one as my body has gotten used to it.

    Currently trying to abstain from weed to see if it helps but struggling with the irritability and anger.