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Cake day: July 3rd, 2023

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  • This seems interesting, i’ll read it fully after work if i don’t forget.

    Something has me convinced i’m depressed but the only time i ever had the posibility to look for help they sort of just worked me towards the door and cut me off asap.

    But they ended up giving me some sort of anti psychotic medication, which definitely allowed me to get back on my feet at the time. (Shit was dark, i fell in a hole with covid, homelessness and unemployment alltogether with my wife and reached a point where i struggled so much i couldn’t even get my ass to a job interview).

    But i still don’t know what the cause of my struggles is, only that they’ve been around as long as i can remember. Some form of psychotic whatever wouldn’t surprise me either looking at my mom and what she did. But from what i know (which isn’t a lot obviously) it seems more like depression.



  • I went to the gym for a couple years and managed to increase my PR’s consistently and doubled my bodyweight at the same bf %.

    Then i decided i was disciplined enough for a homegym as the gym attracted a crowd of generic fools instead of the old club of bodybuilders and powerlifters…i wasn’t disciplined enough.

    I really need that: “since i’m already here, might as well go balls to the wall”.

    My old gym cost about €13, now generic shit gyms cost more than twice as much. I won’t be going back at those prices because food and rent also tripled, i don’t grow money from a tree or something.



  • I just ditched my 8gb card because it wasn’t doing the trick well enough at 1080p and especially not at 1440p.

    So if i get this straight AMD agrees that they need to optimize games better.

    I hate upscaling and frame gen with a passion, it never feels right and often looks messy too.

    First descendant became a 480p mess when there were a bunch of enemies even tho i have a 24gb card and pretty decent pc to accompany that.

    I’m now back to heavily modded Skyrim and damn do i love the lack of upscaling and frame gen. The Oblivion stutters were a nightmare and made me ditch the game within 10 hours.




  • I typed up a complete rant about how i wasted away so much time to work, trying to obtain an income that’s capable of getting me a house.

    But now is the time to focus on what IS positive at the moment, like how i’m still happily together with the wife.

    If i let the negavtives of the past take control, i’ll just stumble down a deep hole again and i don’t want that.







  • That 3070 ended up costing me a sweet €1289, where a 3080 should have retailed for less than that. At the peak of that madness a 3080 went for €3500, hence why i settled for something along my original budget.

    My old pc stopped being able to drag itself through games at 11 years old…poor thing served me well, i still have all the internals and the gpu has a special place on my tv cabinet. That bad boy cost significantly less than the €1289 i paid for the 3070 and outlasted it by a million miles.

    I switched back to AMD with my current gpu seeing how the 50 series is just as insanely priced.

    But i got no complaints because my pc looks absolutely mental and performs well, i got one of those lian li o11 xl rgb cases stuffed to the brim with rgb fans and a closed loop watercooled cpu + vertically mounted gpu…it’s an absolute centerpiece.