I logically know this, but I just can’t seem to get past it. Hence the question as the title.

I’ve invested quite heavily in therapy, both individual and group in the past couple of years.

One of the biggest things that I’ve come to realize is that despite my PO parents saying I was their priority they failed to move towards me when I needed them most. It’s their lack of attunement that hurts.

Yep, been doing that for a few years.

It’s not. I promise. I recently made this account because my others were too identifying of me.

Thanks for your empathy and understanding.

I try to talk about this in therapy but I still seem stuck. I wake up in the middle of the night angry, sad, and crying.

Even trying to set boundaries and communicate them to him leads me to rage and sadness. For years I didn’t recognize that when I’ve spent any time with him it usually takes several days to come back to being fully regulated. I could probably recover faster now that I’ve been to therapy, but I’m frozen in fear that he’ll try to use his wealth to try to control me and the decisions I make for my family.