So r u!

Learn to love yourself so you have something to fight for. Be consciously grateful for the good things in life, as you’ll get more happiness out of them than you do now. Live in the moment so you can fully appreciate what you experience.

Working will still suck and you’ll feel bad sometimes, but so long as you can get everything out of the good; so long as you don’t let bullshit ruin your sense of self, you won’t want to die.

Filling your life in this way is a constant effort, but it will keep it from being hollow. Novel interests alone can’t compete.

I’m afraid no girlhugs then 😁

I won’t force girl cuddles. You need to take your estrogen and water first! ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

🥰 Tysm! I really try my best to help people, so I really appreciate what you say!

My last bit of parting wisdom is to not expect the bad feels to go away on their own. You’re on the right path, but it will take action and bravery to make it over the finish line. Saying that you might not “have anything to work towards” if you were cishet makes me think that you want to be a transfem. It’s ok. That’s all you need!

It’s ok, I’ve been there too. I used to wish I was trans, but I was scared that I was just looking for an easy solution to my problems. It wasn’t an easy solution, not because it isn’t everything I was hoping for, but because it is not easy being trans. Even though I was convinced I wanted HRT from the day I came out, I let myself get fucked around by American health insurance for over a year when I could’ve literally paid a few hundred dollars to get it far quicker. There is a damn good reason that I celebrate the CEO assassination.

Since I came out, I’ve actually looked into the science as best I could. I’ve realized that the entire system is fundamentally limited, from the way we classify disorders, to the way we even understand evolutionary classifications. It’s all made up, because at the end of the day, they’re just tools we created.

Our entire understanding of everything from identity to particle physics is constructed to serve. At a neurological level, we build a simulation of reality to better survive in it. The spoon only exists in our mind; the form isn’t real.

We cannot choose how we feel about our gender; no free will there. Your doubts and misgivings about anything have the ability to protect, but they can also harm. Consider how these doubts about your identity are working out as tools to benefit you: Are you better off because of them, or are they chains tied to a sinking rock?

I wouldn’t say that the roommate necessarily identifies as male. They say “you don’t really need to be a male” when talking about their male marked ID. They purposefully leave the situation ambiguous, likely to minimize the friction of needing to stay in the “male” dorm. They needed to dorm somewhere, and likely couldn’t stay in the female dorm as someone who was AMAB, so they chose to room with a childhood friend and act coy when pressed about their gender.

There’s also the fact that the author is almost certainly trans herself. She doesn’t advertise her gender on most socials, only having it listed on Pixiv, but a brief look at the past profile pics for her Facebook group paints a timeline. She’s posted a number of gender related comics, including a very dark one about Onimai that I don’t have on my phone right now.

My suspicion is that this comic reflects the cultural context that she currently exists in. Keeping her identity on the downlow allows her femcel shitpost comics like Brainrot GF to reach a wider audience, many of whom still refer to queer characters with slurs. Senukin needs the money and doesn’t need the controversy, so she does exactly what this character does.

I wasn’t referencing that video, or 4chan for that matter. It’s more that brainworms is a good term to describe any irrational thought process that empowers self hatred and destructive behavior. The earliest I remember hearing it was Pink Floyd’s The Wall:

• But it was only fantasy

• The Wall was too high, as you can see

• No matter how he tried, he could not break free

• And the worms ate into his brain

Your therapist does not sound reasonable. The model of withholding treatment unless you have “traditional” symptoms of gender dysphoria is outdated and harmful.

Many trans people are unaware of the severity of their gender dysphoria until they finally feel relief. It’s actually more common for queer people to have difficulty discerning their emotions and preferences. It might even explain why queer identities and neurodivergence often co-occur. Waiting for certainty does far more harm than good, especially when the effects of HRT are fairly reversible in the first few months.

When it comes to sex hormones, there is no neutral course of action. If your body is not mostly estrogen dominated, it’s testosterone dominated. There is no middle ground, as lacking sex hormones actually has the most severe health consequences. Each option has upsides and drawbacks, so the choice is medically a toss-up.

The main reason to favor the naturally occurring hormone is fertility, but that should be a private decision if one believes in bodily autonomy. Other reasons are even more based in norms rather than facts. If you decide it isn’t for you, you can just stop. Few changes are totally irreversible for feminizing HRT, and those take months to reach that stage.

In countries where the government gatekeeps HRT, it’s common for people to tell the doctors what they want to hear. Lying about one’s childhood and pretending to have absolute certainty is necessary. This isn’t the fault of the patients, but the medical establishment that refuses to get with the times.

You’re already on hormones, so which would future you regret being on more?

I’m this sort of ally to the American Democratic party ☻️

I made some simplifications and adjustments to compensate for your brainworms :

Seems like you’re on the right track! You just need to go to a tea party and improve your self image <3

One billion, seven thousand, six hundred forty-three! 😱

Hop in! We have transphobes to blast:

It won’t bring comfort or pain. It won’t bring anything except nothing. Getting there will probably be painful and scary; that’s how it is for most people when they die. Your present will no longer exist because you were hoping for a future that one can never experience.

From then on, you’ll only exist in the past of countless others who wish you could’ve stayed longer. They might wish for things you never would’ve willingly delivered, or miss you for things about you that weren’t true. They will miss you for a future unrealized, looking ever forward like you once did. However, the greatest sadness will be the moments when they wished you were there.

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Needless to say, not having a girlfriend is a bad reason to not want to live. I doubt it’s even your real reason. The most common reason for hating existence is hating yourself. If that’s the case, you won’t get better until you love you.

I’ve met several people who couldn’t improve, no matter what they tried. I was stuck in that place for most of my life; cursing that I was born; unable to live for myself. This was all because I was the only person I truly hated. Eventually, I found that my inability to be happy was because I never loved myself. Loving myself wasn’t sufficient for happiness, but it was necessary.

It was often the thing other people in the same spot needed as well. They had often obtained most of what they needed already, but that one piece was still missing. Don’t need a gf to love you if you have a self that loves you 😁

You were cared for once, you can be cared for again. I wouldn’t mind playing with your hair as you rest your head in my lap :3

Self hatred doesn’t help you in any way. It’s not more rational by simply being mean. You are not inherently bad, even if you do bad things. You can always improve, but you never will unless you let that hatred go. It’s never going to be easy or pleasant all the time, but it won’t be only misery either.

That’s unfair! The rest of a girl’s body is also very erotic 😋

It might’ve been that you had a friendly vibe. You looked like someone who wouldn’t cause a scene, so it’d be safer to mess with you. Add a healthy dose of Halloween anonymity to thrill seeking party girls, and you getting very unlucky.

I’m sorry that happened. Sexual assault is fucked up, no matter who is involved.