Yesterday i would have said my strenght but…all now just started crumbling. Every aspect of my life exept my work
We are living in the most developed and peaceful tunes/times. Our great grandparents did not have antibiotics, child mortality was very high. Around 150 years ago, slavery and serfdom was hapenning, so instead of staring itno Outlook or Teams, you would be doing life crushing and dehumanising work. Much off the stuff that was out of reeach by lower or middle class is much more affordable today, even basic stuff such as meat was scarce in my grand parents time (ussr). 100 years ago most people saw only around 30 km around their land, or as much as horse could walk in a day, but now traveling is very affordable. I am hopeful that besides all the political crap we are moving towards even more developed future
Art. I found some cheap acrylic glitter paint I bought a while back and I’ve been making sparkly erotic paintings. Some mixed media with mutilated copies of mass market christian books, random wooden trays. I have a bunch of leftover scraps of t-shirt from making yarn and other fabric remnants, so I make quilts.
I don’t mean to sound ridiculous or facetious here, but honestly, absolutely nothing. Absolutely nothing. I have nothing to be hopeful about anymore. My best friend had been screwing me over for months. My family hates me because I’m gay. I hate myself for a thousand different reasons. Like, I don’t really have anything to be hopeful about anymore. I’m just waiting to die.
For what it’s worth, from one internet stranger to another, I’m sorry.
No one should feel so betrayed on all fronts. That’s awful :(
It’s how I’ve felt for a long time. Had a break with them as a roommate until I realized they were doing the same thing to me that everyone else was. Meh. I’m used to it.
I’m sorry to hear that for you. I hope you can stumble upon, create, or be gifted a life you feel is worth living. I hope you find a good reason to hope.
I just have a bad track record on trusting people. I thought I broke that recently. I was wrong. Combine that with that broken trust snowballing into severe financial problems where I might be homeless? I’m out of hope.
Hey, friend. Just remember that broken trust speaks ill of them, not you. And as for a bad track record, I find that the most trusting people are also the most trustworthy. Right now that’s pretty much all I know about you, but it’s enough to believe you’re making the world around you better. I don’t think your problem is trust, but rather being in a position where broken trust leaves you in an untenable situation.
I don’t know your reasons for hating yourself. Those belong to you. But whatever they are, whether they are valid or not, you don’t deserve hate. Hell, I wouldn’t waste my time hating anyone — hate has never solved a single problem. Give yourself some grace and room to make mistakes and improve. And then to stumble and do it again. We all have.
No lie, part of life is just luck, and for that part I hope yours is good. But the rest of it is in your hands, and those sound like decent hands to be in.
I appreciate it, but it’s all based off of only a small bit of information that you’re aware of. I suck. I hate myself. I have a reason to hate myself. I have almost no value for the rest of humanity in general. So while I do appreciate it, it’s not true for me.
I mean I’ve felt that way before, too. In my case, when I’m not on my ADHD meds, I’m truly a worthless person, contributing nothing at work, waiting around to get fired, etc. I also needed my wife and family to unlock my self-worth in other ways, but that’s a lot more personal and fraught. Maybe there is something that can unlock your worth however you choose to measure it. Good luck, bother.
While I feel everything you wrote in my soul and can empathize with almost every part, know that you are loved by an internet stranger. You deserve happiness, fulfillment, and peace. You are a work of art. Sometimes art is sad or depressing or horrifying, but even with those themes it is beautiful and impactful and moving. You are a work of art that always changes. Learn to love that art, learn to nurture it. Treat it like the masterpiece it is and put it where the world can enjoy it.
I’m here for you if you ever need someone to talk to. I’m not always the most upbeat person given — literally everything — but I’m happy to be a friend.
P.S. Thank you for all the content you share. You are a cornerstone of the fediverse.
Never going to love myself but I appreciate it. I don’t want to anyway.
Also good god… Those are a whole lot of upvotes. Thank you lol but I wouldn’t say I’m a cornerstone of the fediverse. Maaaaaaaaybe early early on but no where near it now.
Movies to watch, games to play, drugs to try, not much else
Everyone dies eventually. Including the people I hate the most.
Not to lie, basically nothing. I’m struggling really bad.
My wife flashing me when we’re alone for a moment.
Be sure to flash her back!
Evil destroys itself. Even if all good is destroyed it can be relearned and rebuilt as it exists in our hearts
The awesome people in the world. The loud, mean ones are easier to spot and spew their crap confidently, but the less obnoxious, actually nice people are everywhere.
Don’t let the media and Internet fool you.
PS: And if you can help a decent human in need, please do.
Getting involved in activities has really helped me see there are a ton of folks out there still doing amazing and positive things.
I’ve started playing music with other people again and we’ve played 2 small public shows and some events where we just play for each other and everyone has been very supportive and we have a great time.
I also volunteered at the wild animal rescue this year, and it’s hard to choose if the people or animals are more amazing. Well, the people are much friendlier than the animals, but seeing the things they can come back from really can feel like witnessing miracles sometimes.
But that’s twice a week I get to hang out with people that help me grows, support me being a better and more rounded person, and we forget about outside troubles and put everything into a positive activity together. It’s been a major help this year.
I work at a college and young adults are far more accepting of each other.
I hope the children of the future
Everything is cyclical. Its cycles all the way down…
Wait, You guys have hope?
Why do you think I’m asking? 😅
