Thank you very much! That looks like a great place to get ideas indeed.

Yeah this sounds kinda like the same deal as with Fable Anniversary years ago. It also used the original game files wrapped up in the Unreal engine and modding was possible with the original tools.

I had thought of this area of work. Not averse to learning something tech related (although you wouldn’t be able to tell going by the 3 times I’ve started and abandoned a programming course in my life), I just worry that being both a noob and almost 40 would count against me finding actual work. Plus, going by the other commenter, seems like a tough market right now.

On a side note, programming is something I would love to do in my downtime, to be able to finally make my game(s) lol.

This kind of question always immediately makes me think of something a friend said years ago when I was still a teen. We were talking about school and education and shit and it was on the subject of asking questions when you don’t fully understand something and he said “rather ask a stupid question and be a fool for five minutes, then keep your mouth shut and be a fool for the rest of your life.” I think it was something that his mother had told him, in their language, so I’m constructing that statement from memory but it was something close to that.

So I sound like a hypocrite

Nah don’t worry about that. Everyone is entitled to a bit of wallowing after heart break lol. Besides, we all get hurt but yours is fresh and real and not just a bad memory yet. And it’s not a competition either, your feelings are just as valid as anyone else’s. I just hope that being able to talk it out at least helped ease the pressure a little bit.

And so much for my suggestion about taking a break lol. I’m sorry that this happened to you. Life fucking sucks lol. I’m all out of fortune cookies now but I know that love fucking hurts, so I understand your pain.

I understand. It is fucking hard. And it’s easy to dish out advice on the internet but you’re the one dealing with all of this. I’m pretty sure it’s not an equal playing field either because some people make it look easy, or have luck, or just start from more privileged positions where they don’t have to deal with the same trials and tribulations.

The way you described things in your previous post, the dating or just flirting scene honestly sounds like a nightmare these days. People offering to pay you for your company? Sounds like it’s almost a normalised thing at the moment but it’s actually creepy. And I’m making an assumption here based on knowing how the world works but I’m guessing that this has been your experience since you were a teenager.

What I’m trying to say is that the world failed you and your generation. You’ve been surrounded by predators and manipulative people and you’ve been led to believe that this is just normal and how life is. Stop me if I’m wrong. Maybe that is life now but it shouldn’t be. And you shouldn’t base your self worth on predators and pick up artists and people that evaluate you based on things like body count.

So maybe, you should take a break from relationships with other people for a little while to work on your relationship with yourself. And maybe rethink and reassess what life has taught you about others and yourself.

I definitely hear you, in fact I ended up kinda shutting myself off for years just to avoid that pain. But maybe one has to come first. Maybe if your self worth was higher, it wouldn’t be so easy to be hurt by people. People that probably didn’t deserve your company in the first place.

I did involve myself I guess in situations where things can go wrong but I never wanted that.

We live and we learn. There’s no going back and doing things differently (although I fkn wish there was), the only direction is forward. And the best that we can do is learn and grow and maybe do things differently in the future.

Not to sound too much like a fortune cookie though lol. The truth is that I suck at life myself, so I’m not sure if I’m even qualified to be giving this kind of advice. But hopefully there’s something in here that helps.

One thing that I do know is that there’s no magic words that you’re going to hear that will make the current fresh pain that you’re feeling go away. That’ll only happen with time. So hang in there, and be kind to yourself. We’re all just making it up as we go along.

I just lost something so good in my life because I made a big mistake

I saw your previous post and I just want to say, as an internet stranger that only knows what I’ve read, I think that you did nothing wrong and I hope that you reach the point where you can see that and believe it for yourself. I’ll be fair and say that at most, you both fucked up. But that’s just in the interest of fairness towards people I don’t actually know. I don’t believe it though. In fact, the way it went down, it just proves that you had good reason to not be 100% truthful at the start. And I don’t believe the results would’ve been any different anyway. The only thing that I agree with that person about is that you need to believe in your own self worth.

As for your question, let me know if you get a good answer lol. At least being able to get things off your chest on an anonymous platform and hopefully get helpful advice is the next best thing.

Game of Thrones. To me it just came across as torture porn. Just a series of awful things happening to people from one scene to the next. The schtick about different kingdoms and families vying for the throne or whatever was just the backdrop and context to rape, abuse and murder, which was the star of the show.

I love fantasy but that show didn’t do it for me in the slightest. Not interested in checking out any of that guy’s books either.

Haha hell yeah, that’s more like it. I’ve never played charades either though lol. So not sure how much help I’ll be there.

Well for someone that cares so much about your feelings of self worth, he sure seems to be putting you through a hard time here. Although also, I don’t really know anyone in this situation and here on the internet we’ll always arrive with our pitchforks out. So I hope your assessment of the situation is right.

Red pill ideology is basically ‘manosphere’ shit. Where they talk about “high value women” that can carry their babies and gender roles and shit. Like Joe Rogan and Jordan Peterson and shit.

Your whole story makes me kinda sad or at the very least uneasy, if I’m being honest. I’m guessing you’re pretty young, like gen Z. And if things are like this in general now for people growing up online, I dunno. I feel bad that you’ve grown up this way and this is your experience of men and relationships and shit. Although I guess I already saw signs that things were partly this way when I was younger too, going by what I heard from certain people I used to talk to.

This guy sounds insecure and kinda mean if I’m being honest. And from my perspective, the obsession with body count gives me suspicions of red pill ideology. I hope that you eventually meet someone that doesn’t even ask questions like that.

Funny, but I for one think that this place could do with more silly and fun questions to beat the boredom and / or break the ice for new users. It’ll probably get more engagement than 5 or so hyper specific questions a day at least. But to answer your question, I didn’t see the need for both a TV and an air hockey table.

South African here. Not really that invested in seeing any South African communities grow here if I’m honest. I don’t really feel any particular connection or pride for any sort of heritage. My ‘culture’ is cartoons and comics and video games and western music subcultures.

I do like that non-Americans are more visible here though. It feels like much more of an international crowd here on Lemmy.

Can’t say I’ve found any particular subreddits that feel like home yet. Once I’m back on the horse watching pro wrestling I’ll probably use SquaredCircle a lot again. On Reddit, I’d be most active in subreddits based on whatever I’m currently watching or playing. Which isn’t really a thing here yet. Like, one of the last subs I was fairly active in on Reddit was the Sonic the Hedgehog sub. There’s a community here but last I checked it was pretty dead. Most of the communities that I would be active in are entertainment based, I guess.

And of course I appreciate a lot of the communities in Blahaj. Although I’m still mostly floating around finding myself in the regard.

Something else that I’m appreciating is the amount of random animal subs that come through my feed that I’m slowly subbing to. From cats and dogs to raccoons and possums and otters and crows and owls. There’s a new one I’m coming across almost every day and I love it.

Haha I’ve had that exact same thought! It’s like a chicken and egg kinda situation. Am I non-binary because of my experience of men, or is my experience of men because I’m non-binary? Good to hear that the doubts never really go away lmao.

Identifying with this kind of stuff has been a pretty big source of imposter syndrome and guilt for me personally, at this stage in my journey.

I actually lurked actuallesbians on Reddit for a while (after having it pushed to me in /r/all for a couple of months before that) and the amount of relating to things that I did was insane. From the humour to the concept of travelling 500 miles when you finally meet someone like you and falling in ‘love’ overnight. And a lot of literal blushing, which is something I don’t often do.

But then you also read conversations about how men lurk in places like that to harass and send dick pics and shit and start to feel like a piece of shit creep yourself, even though you haven’t actually considered yourself a ‘man’ for a couple of years and all you do is lurk and upvote things. So I unsubbed. Then kept getting it pushed to me in /r/all anyway, so resubbed. Then unsubbed a little while later again lol. And on that note, I’ve also already subbed and then unsubbed to this community since I’ve been here on Lemmy.

Before they mention any backwards conservative bigot views, or throw their trash out the window of a moving a car, or treat minimum wage staff like dirt, I’m afraid to say that a big red flag for me personally is being religious.

And it’s not just because christians seem to be leading the charge in supporting right wing piece of shit politicians. It’s not just because they have looked the other way for decades while priests molest kids but treat drag queens reading books in a public library as the ultimate sin.

It’s from a lifetime of these people telling me that all the cartoons I enjoyed and music I listened to was going to send me to hell. It’s from believing in the first place that anyone different from you deserves to literally burn for eternity and not seeing a problem with that. It’s because of every christian that ever told me that only humans have souls and that other animals are just meat robots to use and abuse. It’s because of my reborn christian hostel master that used to go on long lectures about how KISS stands for Kids In Satan’s Service. And all of the other super racist, super christian piece of shit teachers in that school. It’s because of every christian that I have eaten a meal with that insists on holding hands and saying grace without once asking or checking what my beliefs are, or even giving a shit.

I have a lifelong suspicion and distrust of religious people and nothing that has been happening in the world socio-politically in the last decade has improved that suspicion, in fact it’s just made it worse.

So even if you claim to be a 'left wing christian" (like fucking for virginity) or try to tell me that most christians are decent people, all of the evidence says otherwise and tells me that christians are dogmatic and unempathetic and will support dogmatic and unempathetic leaders the first chance they get. And that makes us enemies.

The same goes for all monotheistic religions but a single out christianity here based on my own life experience.

My 19 year old self would be sad and hopefully take a different path.

Killing is wrong. And bad. There should be a new, stronger word for killing. Like badwrong, or badong. Yes, killing is badong. From this moment, I will stand for the opposite of killing: gnodab.

Next, these people are going to start going after heavy metal and rap music again.