I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around? 😔I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.

  • OsrsNeedsF2P@lemmy.ml
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    1 month ago

    Kk I actually read your post. Yea that’s pretty heartbreaking. Ignore what the other guy said about finding a rebound.

    As a guy in a long distance relationship, I understand what your ex means by saying he wished that he treated you better. I always feel that way when we’re apart - and I feel like I do better each time we get back together - but you feel that way when you miss someone, not when you already have them there. This is likely why he didn’t try harder during the relationship.

    I stand by my previous advice to get a new hobby. Go running. Pick up rock climbing. Meet new people - this is a new chapter for you, and you have plenty of opportunity to learn. Put yourself out there and distract yourself, otherwise the thoughts will consume you in waves.

    Many of us are commenting from experience. Breakups happen. But they give opportunity to grow in a way that you haven’t grown before. You have newfound time to be alone - time previously spent with him. Do something with it.