I have a friend who all of a sudden was broken up with by their decade-long partner. Never saw it coming, never got full closure. Point is you can’t look into someone’s head and you might never get a definitive answer as to “why” and “how” and the sooner you accept that the sooner you can move on.

Sounds harsh now, but things end and this too shall pass eventually. Stay strong.

I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It’s free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.

Walking works because it’s an action that doesn’t require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It’s the easiest way to get your mind off of something.

You can’t just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.

Ayy so I got a game in 20 sec and can’t read all that but I promise you, you will heal with time. You will move on. But do something productive in the meantime. Become a better person - hit the gym, study for your next job hop, go for a hike, start a new hobby and meet friends - by being better, you’ll have a chance to slowly get better.

I’ll read your post after but you need to preoccupy your mins with other things.

I don’t know the details of your break up, but when I went through my last serious relationship where he broke up with me over text, I just stopped talking to him. Yes, I cried a lot because I was so confused and destroyed because hd kept telling me that it wasn’t anything that I’d done (found out later he was cheating), but I knew I had to move on.

I turned my sadness in to anger and picked up running and exercise. Endorphins helped a lot, and so did the mindset of “I’m going to be better, and he’s going to regret it, but I’ll never take him back.” Probably not an entirely healthy way of deal with it, but it worked. Still cried every night, but it worked. I then found another sport and just fell in love with it, so I focused entirely on that. I’m still doing this sport today.

You may never get the closure that you’re satisfied with. This you will also have to accept. He may not even be telling you the truth.

Make sure you have some supportive people around you, and keep yourself distracted. This is #1. Best of luck. You’re stronger than you think.

Go volunteer to help someone else.

Nothing gets my mind off my problems like being useful.

It feels awful to have someone completely change what they want out of life from under you. Know that he’s probably been trending that way for a while, and it just took a while for him to bring it to words.

You’re going to get angry with him soon, but what you’re feeling right now is normal. You’re dealing with grief, and there’s stages. They’re going to take months-years to work through. That’s how this shit works.

There’s no substitute for time.

Take how long you were together and roughly 1/3rd of that is your recovery time before you’re going to have this as a distant, faded, annoying memory of a time before you were stronger and a more capable partner.

If you let yourself, you can use this as an opportunity to get stronger. I know it feels like the two of you were perfect for each other, and that you’ll never find someone as special as him again, in all the ways that matter to you; and you’re right, you won’t, because you’ll find someone that will be even more special and will really get you.

You just have to hang in there and give this some time to work through. Don’t go rushing into another relationship imo, I’ve done that and it feels great in the moment, but all it does is delay your healing from this relationship even more. It will make your next breakup even worse, and then you’re trapped in a cycle.

Take some time for yourself, give yourself a minimum of 6 months before you think about or start dating again. Nobody is emotionally ready for that out of the gate unless they’re sociopaths.

You’ll know when it’s time. It’ll feel right. I promise.

Until then, hang in there, and best of luck on the anger phase of this, that was a rough one for me and lasted longer than I care to admit before I learned to let it go.

Fresh wounds always hurt the worst. This sounds like it just happened. You are obviously going to need time to emotionally move on from a failed relationship.

My advice is to distract your brain from the event in the short term. Play with your pets, go see a movie, hang out with your friends, eat some ice cream, focus on your creative hobbies. When this sort of thing happened to me when I was younger, I would flip it around and use my newfound single status as a positive - I can enjoy the foods and activities that I knew my ex-partner didn’t like, I didn’t have to plan my schedule around making time to see them and include them in stuff, and I just generally enjoyed the liberating feeling of being single, even though it still hurt to lose someone so close that I had been so attached to. By the time I started to feel like the feeling of being single was losing it’s appeal, I was emotionally ready to move on and meet new people.

In short, just give it more time. Distract your brain. In time, this too will pass.

Song written from a dude’s point of view, but I think it’s equally applicable:

Chris Smither - Winsome Smile:

https://youtu.be/CuMpm6g5xIQ

"Stop thinking now
Quit second-guessing all your failed relations
With your would’ve, could’ve, should’ve, maybe might-have-been
I’ll show you how
Send your feelings out for lubrication
Lose these blues and screw your head on tight again
She cut you bad, your heart is just a scar
But if you could just get mad, you’d be better off by far
What you want is taken
What you need is better circulation
Work that heavy heart and get it light again

Listen to me now
You suffer from a sad mis-apprehension
That if she could read your mind she’d see just how it ought to be
But she’s read it all by now
And your style don’t get a grip on her attention
She ain’t in your state of mind and she don’t want to be
You think if she’d just talk, you could explain it all
She’d be polite, but all night she’s been hoping you won’t call
She’ll say it’s all her fault, she’ll always be your friend
Plus loads of shit too dumb to mention
I’ve been that road and it’s paved with good intentions

Well it’s hard to believe
But I’m telling you your heart would soon recover
But you don’t want it to, you love this aching agony
'Cause it’s noble, and it’s true
You won’t forsake this pain for other lovers
Happiness would fill your mind with misery
Time will wound all heels, and it ain’t pretty
With any luck at all, she’ll find some dope that you can pity
Your loss is measured in illusions
And your gain is all in bittersweet intelligence
And your winsome smile will lose some of its innocence
Your winsome smile
Your winsome smile will lose some of its innocence"

Why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship

Instead of asking yourself why he didn’t fight for you and your relationship, tell yourself that you are worth more than that. I know it’s easier said than done but the idea is to have some self worth and to know your worth. Don’t let people walk over you, and that also means don’t give a get out of jail free card for any unknown thing he may have done. That is belittling to yourself and you’re worth more than that. He made a choice, and if he doesn’t want to fight for you then don’t fight for him.

Beyond that, find a new hobby or interest and dive into that. Bonus points if it is some kind of group where you meet new people. Find ways to be happy with yourself before the next relationship.

Best of luck. And I’ll add to the choir that time does help. It may feel like you’re drowning now but everything will be ok and work out for the best.

I know this isn’t super helpful right now but hear me out.

This has been many many years ago but I went through a separation for over a year, got back together, and then eventually divorced. Swore I would never put my kid through what I went through as a kid but ended up doing it anyway. Absolute worst pain I’d ever felt at the time. Lost my house, went without a car for a while. Had to move back in with my mom. Pain eventually started to subside. Met another wonderful woman. Eventually got married again. My life is way better now than what I would have been had I stayed married to my now ex. What was absolutely the most horrible thing I’d ever felt, barely even registers now.

Eventually the pain will go away. But as a therapist once told me, the only way to get over the pain is to go through it. In 20 years, you’ll barely remember it.

I know it’s easy to say but time will help, hope you feel better soon

Planning your days might help? My thoughts here is simply that structure and routine may provide something to focus on, that might help you “push through” the negative thoughts. And if you have any support network, please reach out! I’m sure you’ll struggle with feeling guilty burdening your friends, but times like this are when you do need that support.

It wasn’t you! It was all him. I promise.

Give it time.

It’s a fresh wound, and those hurt until they heal. You need to give yourself time. This will sound sexist, but if you were a guy, I’d say you need a good bartender. Not saying the same wouldn’t work for a woman, but being a single woman in a bar kind of opens you up to the kind of attention it sounds like you don’t need, or want, any more of. Still, in lieu of a good friend, just having someone who can hear you vent your pain can be healthy (hence my recommendation for a good bartender - when I was being a detached listener was considered part of the job).

When you’re not venting/working through the pain, try to work on you. Work towards liking/loving yourself.

Hey, I’m going through something very similar rn. She broke up with me about 5 months ago and it still hurts so much. I can’t stop thinking about her. You’re not alone. I wish I had a cure, but just like you, I don’t.