I’ve been 10months on HRT so maybe it’s still too early to tell but I genuinely believe I won’t pass unless I get FFS, my face was quite masculine before HRT and I think it’s not possible to change some stuff without surgical intervention. I have a prominent brow ridge, my jaw is square and my chin is cleft. No matter how hard I try with makeup, voice, eyebrows and hair, I still get sir’d once people see my face. Sorrowfully without much hesitation. It makes me feel terribly illegitimate to call myself a woman when I look like this.

My dysphoria has lowered a lot since starting though and I actually feel alive for once in my life. But maybe it would be better identifying as a femboy until I can get FFS…

  • Chloë (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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    17 hours ago

    Thanks for your words, I often feel like looking like a woman is this unattainable goal, and I guess not reaching for it feels comforting if that makes sense?

    I don’t let passing prevent me from living, I do basically what I want transition wise long hair, women’s clothing, perfume, you name it. but I really really really want to pass, because ultimately it would reflect what I really am on the inside. Now I feel torn like my soul is split between what I am and what people think I am.